Wednesday, April 20, 2011

gone home

just over a week ago, on April 10, after nearly 11 months of breathing on his own, my sweet little warrior, was welcomed into the arms of our Savior. 

For those of you who follow this blog but do not know me personally, i am sorry for how long it has taken to let you know of our loss.  As you can imagine, it's been difficult to think in a straight line, much less collect my thoughts on paper. 

as of right now my husband and i have run away from home and am updating you from a comfy king bed in St. Ignus Michigan. Gideon's funeral was on the 14th of April.  What would have been his 11 month birthday.  after the funeral, David and I decided we needed to spend some time just away, time to talk, and grieve, and rest.  I have decided not to leave my position at work, but I won't go back until the end of the month.

Its still very difficult for me to talk about what happened in those last few hours and I don't know that it will ever be easy to talk about.  Someday i will be ready to tell that story. 

For now I am to find my way in this journey of grief.  I am mulling on things to share with you, but I don't know where to start.  I can tell you that it has been a privilege to share this much of my journey with you. I might know you personally, or maybe you found my blog through a friend or however it is that you find a blog that you read, but i have to tell you that i am honored that you have chosen to read this one. 

I know that my story isn't done yet, and neither is Gideon's. 

Thank you.


  1. So sorry for the loss of your little man! Praying for you and your family!

  2. Kati- I think of you everyday and say a prayer for healing and peace...when I read your facebook post that day it literally took my breath are correct that Gideon's story is not my new job one of my co-workers clients child has microcephely and I was able to share some of his story with my co-worker, and she was affected, she was moved, and she grieved with you even though you will never meet her.

    while we are not that close I did follow your journey through facebook and this blog and was praying for you the entire way, having worked in early intervention I know how hard it is to have a medically fragile child and my heart continually ached for you...

    I am so glad that you and David ran away, and I hope that it can be a time of rest...the grieving will come and I pray you have a great support to love on you as you start that journey...

    your writing is beautiful, don't stop, also I love the titles of your posts they are always so clever and interesting :)